Here come the holidays, the most exhausting part of the year. Time to spend money and slap a shit-eating smile on my face as I deal with my goddamn family. I'm hoping and praying to every deity I can think of that Briana doesn't come to Thanksgiving. Last year she came in and immediately proceeded to scream at all of us. We still have no idea why. She left, and we were relieved, but then she kept calling to bitch us out some more. She can't NOT start drama, and it's soooo frustrating. She tried to start something at my mom's BENEFIT DINNER. Luckily Grandma pulled her aside and told her to knock it off. Otherwise I may have hit her. She always goes on and on about how she knows we think she's a bad mother and all that crap. Maybe because we do. She had that baby for all the wrong reasons and was completely unprepared to raise him. Now she's pregnant YET AGAIN and I want to kill her. Does she seriously think that the state will let her keep this baby? She can only have supervised visits with Dakota. She doesn't have her diploma, she has no job, no place of her own. What the fuck can she possibly offer a child? And her sister Samantha is pregnant too. I want to kill them all. How can I possibly be related to these idiots?

Title: I Will Follow You Into The Dark
Fandom: The Unusuals
Pairing: Leo Banks/Eric Delahoy
Rating: R, mature, whatever.
Warnings: SLASH. And a tiny bit o language. Just mostly SLASH
Summary: When the truth finally comes out, Leo must fight to save his best friend.
Disclaimer: Don't own nothing.

Well, I finally wrote a fic after almost six years. (*kicks lazy muses*) I worry that my work has fallen flat in that time, but I'll leave that up to you. Still, it was a labor of love, since I've been shipping these two like crazy since I started watching. I'm such a sucker for those male cop pairings. ^^

( I Will Follow You Into The Dark )

I would sell an organ in a heartbeat even if I didn't need the money. I know that sounds weird, but let me explain. Since before I was born my Dad has been in and out of hospitals and dialysis. His kidneys had failed, so I grew up hearing about transplants, hanging in hospitals for days. I've been able to follow medical jargon on tv since I was 12. I aced my anatomy class with very little studying.

My dad was on dialysis for over nine years and had 5 transplants. Most people can only survive on dialysis alone for about ten years. Then a 18 year old boy and his 16 year old sister were in a car accident. When their parents arrived to the hospital, both were braindead. The parents took them off life support, even though they hadn't been on it for even a day, and they donated every organ that could be harvested. My dad got their eighteen year old son's kidneys. Because of those parent's selflessness, my dad is alive today. We owe that family everything, and I think about that often. When I went in to renew my driver's license on my 18th birthday, the first thing I did was check the box indicating I wanted to be an organ donor. Some religious nut once made the mistake of questioning my decision. I looked at him and said: "Because some kid checked that box, my dad is alive today. I will remember him forever for that, and I look forward to making a difference for a family in the same way".

Organ donation is something I feel very strongly about, and encourage everyone to give the ultimate gift to someone who needs it. You will live on forever in someone's grateful heart.

You Scored as Miyamoto Musashi You're considered a sword saint, whatever the fuck that is. You don't give two hoots what weapon or tact people come at you with, as your solution is a steady grip on a sharp blade and it tends to work. You're never going to be defeated in battle, but you are going to die of Cancer. Adolf Hitler 75% Miyamoto Musashi 75% Dante Alighieri 67% Friedrich Nietzsche 67% Steven Morrissey 58% C.G. Jung 58% Mother Teresa 50% Jesus Christ 50% Elvis Presley 42% Stephen Hawking 33% O.J. Simpson 17% Sigmund Freud 17% Charles Manson 0% Hugh Hefner 0%

Hitler?! Seriously?!?! Geez, just because you're an artist.... But I can see me as Miyamoto Musashi. Alot of people see me as a very good person. It was kind of amusing when my fellow employees found out that I smoke and drink sometimes. Plus I'm a samurai that will never be defeated in battle? FTW!

I love Halloween. Then I get to discuss things I love!

Anyway, to answer the question, no. A zombie is nothing more than a walking pile of meat. When a person becomes a zombie, they first die, and then lose everything that makes them....alive. Zombies have virtually no reasoning skills, no distinct personality, do not feel pain and do not need to breathe. They can walk (sort of, and depending on which movie you watch), they can see just not comprehend the world around them, and feel only the most basic instinct any living creature can feel: the need to eat. Technically, they don't even NEED to eat. It doesn't sustain them. But even when we're born we have the urge to eat. It's burned deep into us and can't be shaken. Perhaps the reason they seek out live flesh is that they've regressed back to a hunter mentality. Early humans were hunters; predators. It's in our genes. Of course, as we developed empathy and the like, we suppressed our need to hunt all the time and found other ways to get food. But zombies are stripped of empathy. They feel nothing, both mentally and physically. They ARE dead. It's just that their bodies haven't gotten that message yet.

"When There's No More Room In Hell, The Dead Will Walk The Earth" ~ Dawn Of The Dead

Aw yes, horror movies. My bread and butter. ^^ I'm hard pressed to pick a favorite. The Evil Dead is a good one, though I actually prefer Evil Dead 2 and Army Of Darkness. Those two have a lot more impressive in terms of character changes in Ash. In the first one, he's kinda whiny and wussy, I'll be honest. Then in the second one we see that change into the awesome Dead hunter we all know and love. Then the third one has the ridiculously over-the-top moments that make it so wonderful. Also like SAW. It was a very interesting premise, amazingly executed by two newcomers who clearly had a love for the genre. Not to mention the fantastic acting of Cary Elwes and Leigh Whannell. They had amazing chemistry, and managed to turn these characters who were supposed to be bastards into people we could empathize with. I never really got into the others' in the series, though. Of course I ADORE George Romero's Dead series. Especially the somewhat forgotten Land Of The Dead. It was fun to see the environment change into a apocalyptic future. Also adored the characters, which is what often draws me into a movie. Great chemistry between John Leguizamo's Cholo and Simon Baker's Riley. I was devastated when Cholo died, though. T_T It took me a while to really appreciate the Hostel series. At first I thought it was mindless, then I watched it again and really liked Jay Hernandez's Paxton. Halloween both the remake and original I enjoyed mostly for their use of music. Especially in the original, it was far less terrifying to watch in mute. Rob Zombie's remake skillfully used the music again, particularly in the scene where a young Michael Myers kills the nurse with a fork. As his mother and Dr Loomis run in, the music builds to a crescendo until you can't hear anyone else. Young Michael is held back by a guard, and when his mother nears him he screams at her, eyes wild. The image freezes, and the music cuts entirely. It truely marks the rebirth of Michael Myers, the very moment when he became a psychopath. Also, he never says another word the rest of the movie. And as for Mr Zombie, his first movie House Of 1000 Corpses and it's sequel The Devil's Rejects blew me away. The first gives us an introduction to the Firefly family and their deranged ways, giving us the sickest "family" since the Hewitt's. The second really intrigued me. It was focused entirely on the Fireflys as they flee from the cops, and by the end of it I found myself actually ROOTING for them! Even aside from the murder, torture and whatnot, we see that, in their own fucked up way, they loved each other. Again, in their own fucked up way. I was so amazed at how Rob Zombie could take antagonists and turn them into protagonists. 

I could ramble on for hours about horror movies (I've been subscribing to Fangoria for about five years now) but I'll just cut it short and make a few more suggestions:

 Thir13en Ghosts
The Thing
The After Dark Horrorfest series (though I haven't seen the recent six movies, and fuck Unrest that movie's crap)
Ginger Snaps
Shaun Of The Dead (while not technically horror, it's made by two zombie movie fanboys and is HILARIOUS!)

Last of all, for those of you looking for a new scary series, check out Supernatural. That show is soooo incredible. It's the first show to scare me since the early days of The X-Files, and the Winchester brothers, Dean and Sam (played by Jensen Ackles and Jared Padelecki respectively) are soooo HOT- I mean.....um.....good at what they do. ^^ It delves into every kind of horror, from ghosts to demons to things I've never even heard of, and also has a sense of humor. They even did an ep recently that was all in black and white, took place in a town that looked like a European village, and featured Dracula, the Wolf Man and the Mummy. I fangirl-squealed myself to death!

Anyway, I could easily make more suggestions, I'm already listing a bunch in my head, but I'll stop here. *sigh* Maybe one day I'll write a book or something on horror movies. Based on this ramble, you guys would read that, right?

stolen from csi_sanders1129

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Church and state should absolutely be separate. Growing up, I felt pressured to follow Christianity because that seemed to be what everyone, including my governement, followed. I tried to find solace in God and church, but I never felt anything. The more I looked for comfort, the more I found hypocrisy. I finally looked elsewhere and found Witchcraft, along with the spiritual comfort I'd been looking for. But the first time I tried to explain it to my parents, they asked if I was worshipping Satan. They were open enough to hear out my explanation and welcome my newfound religion, but I'm afraid of what others may do if they find out. The government long ago drilled "under God" into the public consciousness, and unfortunately that is still around. I hope that now, as my generation begins to have children, the idea of Christianity as the one true religion will start to wane, so we can have real religious acceptance in our country.

Can't believe it's been seven years. I vividly remember that day. It was shortly into my eighth grade year. I was coming out of Industrial Tech with Kelsey and Jean, which was our first class. Kelsey and I were going to Choir while Jean was heading to Band. Michael came up to us in the hallway between the Industrial Tech room and the Choir room, which were right next to each other, and told us that a plane hit the Pentagon. We laughed it off, then we got into the Choir room, and it was on the tv. I sat down, and stared at the tv. I didn't quite grasp what was going on. I didn't even understand what the World Trade Center was. I got home, and turned on the tv. It was on every channel. And I started to cry. I still didn't understand the gravity of the situation. It didn't occur to me that thousands of people had died, and that this was an event that was going to change history. I just suddenly felt overwhelmed, and cried.

Every year on this day I feel like this. I'm physically and emotionally exhausted. The curse of being an Empath with strong emotional memory. I woke up this morning and felt like I'd been run over. Even my coworkers noticed that I wasn't my usual self. It's hard to explain to people you'd just met that you feel the emotions of those around you as strongly as you feel your own. September 11th is a day marked by sadness and death, and it's so strong I still feel it seven years later.

Damion Starr was the name of one of my characters. I watched 'The Omen' and liked the name "Damien", but wanted a way to feminize and take it away from 'Omen'. I changed the spelling, putting in an 'o' because it seemed more feminine (in my little world ^^;;). Starr went with the story, which was a sci-fi epic. (Yeah, that's right. EPIC) I chose a middle name only recently after I fell in love with 'Farscape'. I adored the name "Aeryn" as well as the character, so I adopted that into my name. I've been known as Damion Starr online ever since. ^^

Think it goes without saying that I was online immediately following the finale, eagerly typing up my thoughts and reactions. It took an hour, but I was finally done!....then my internet froze up and I had to shut it down. I took a hot shower, went to bed, and NOW am writing my reaction. ^^

Probably my strong sense of devotion. When my parents argued, I used to side blindly with her because she was my blood. I yelled at a good friend because he made his girlfriend, another good friend, cry. I have refused to watch Stargate: Atlantis because they got rid of my favorite character, Aiden Ford, after the second season. I did the same to The X-Files when Mulder disappeared for a season, and SG-1 because of Daniel. Those were still perfectly good shows, but my stubbornly devoted fangirl side refused to let me watch. T__T

1. WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother & father's middle name)
Elizabeth Karl

2. NASCAR NAME: (first name of your mother's dad, father's dad)
Arthur Don

3. STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name)
Wigbr ...........that makes no sense whatsoever

4. DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal)
Purple Horse. Like some kinda lame superhero

5. SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
Lee Duluth. Sounds like a dude's name........

6. SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd fav color, fav drink, add "THE" to the beginning)
Black The Sprite .........................................................

7. FLY NAME: (first 2 letters of 1st name, last 2 letters of your last name)
Bron. Hee

8. GANGSTA NAME: (fav ice cream flavor, fav cookie)
Unconditional Chocolate Chocolate Chip. Word

9. ROCK STAR NAME: (current pet's name last pet's name, current street name)
Faith Washington. Sounds like a senator or a porn star.

10. STRIPPER NAME: (name of your fav perfume/cologne, fav candy)
Precious Jewel MnMs Yey candy ^^

11. PORN NAME: (1st pet, street you grew up on)
Stephanie Alpine .................................

I hate my fucking roommate. I swear, if that bitch calls me "fatass" one more time I'm going to go off on her. Like she should talk, anyway. And she's such a hypocrite. She chewed me out because she thought a friend had called her the c-word. I explained that we were discussing something else and that it wasn't directed at her. (Even though it should) Hell, the context didn't even make sense. Now she's just making shit up. But anyway, she said that the word was offensive and we shouldn't use it. This coming from the bitch that abuses the word "fuck". I was soo embarrassed when my parents came down to visit and she kept saying it. My dad HATES that word and was ready to slap her. Wish he had. Maybe then she'd shut the hell up for once. She also expects us to treat her friends with respect while she is horribly disrespectful to mine and Julie's friends. I wish I could get her ass thrown out. She has broken so many rules, including imbibing alcohol and smoking weed, among other things. She talks about professionalism, while I have yet to see her do homework. I HATE THIS FUCKING BITCH.

Oh. My. Fucking. God. 

HEATH LEDGER IS DEAD.

Ennis is DEAD?!?!?!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Been looking through the fics of my fanfiction.net and found a total of four bad reviews for 52 fics. Not bad, ne? Three of the bad ones were from the same guy and anonymous, so I deleted them. This one was not anonymous, so I couldn't delete it, but I reported it as abuse and am waiting to hear if he's gonna be banned. ^^

This was left for my Jurassic Park slash fic, "Out Of Luck". Was also the first review of that fic. It sort of freaked me out, because that fic was the first I've found of the fandom and pairing. But now I've got a bunch of glowing reviews, so I can laugh. Will you join me? ^^

Matt15086
ok dude u must be seriously gay! Cause men and men do NOT kiss what so ever! That is the sickest thing ever! No wonder no one has reivewed this fic. GUYS ARE ONLY SUPPOSE TO LIKE GIRLS! THERE NOT SUPPOSE TO BE GAY! THAT'S JUST PLAIN WRONG! so please don't put up anymore gay fic's again person! :)

When I replied, the first thing I said? "I'm FEMALE dumbass". Also loved the smiley face at the end, as if that makes his entire homophobic rant okay. I hope he never gets laid....